Twin Flames, True Love and an ordeal in loss of faith in God.

Of all the challenges I have faced in life the most difficult has been dealing with an unconscious twin flame and white supremacy at the same time. The odds have been so low and I continue to wonder if this challenge in of itself holds a deep reality for why an African unconscious twin flame and a white eugenist, incestous and genocidal president (who is really a Don) would come into my experience to handle/battle/deal with…or rather love on together….

Our history as a species has been redacted of so many deep truths of our most instrinsic nature, the nature of love, the power of embodiment, the feminine, and masculine and their unity. These truths were redacted out for the convenience of deceitful bids of power, of privilege, of a false mark of ‘King’ and ‘Queen’.

An unconscious black man is the result of white supremacy. An unconscious African is the greatest symptom of the generational pain left in the bodies and lands of sapiens all over the world! Our most pristine genetic makeup of our species embodying a deep forgetfulness of its own I dare say divine potential.

How does one trust a ‘knowing’ when the reality of our embodied experience continues to breakdown our understanding, our beliefs, our traditions, our ways for about 40-100 ancestors? What does it take from me, from you, from us to help our knowings persevere? Does it take battle and takeouts? Or love? Not softy fake, lets go out and fuck kinda love. LOVE, the kind that weaves matter into life, into a sapien, into leaves, into water into a perfectly timed kiss that felt the moment wanted more than the two sets of lips that were pulled into it!

LOVE is not an emotion. IT is our very nature. But in the present day, it also isnt. As children are born in lust, in strategy, in pain, in plays, in performance, in need to have a baby before I am 30. When we are not created in love how can be know what it is? Why won’t we wonder every which way to find that, understand that? This gap in the most basic ingredient of sapien development and the widespread control of white supremacy creates for the perfect conditions for the deepest pain and ordeal…..

LOVE is all is takes. And this is a truth that has been tested by the breaking of everything sacred to me. Just ashes remain. Just ashes remain. Just ashes remain of a life, a world, relationships, a reality that I built myself for the last 13 years and a lifetime really. LOVE is the only thing holding me. Not with human arms, but the moment by moment presence that has a million blocks to Big dons ways that no one could have warned me nor trained me for! A million miracles to show the way. A million faceless and nameless to me sapiens making a choice in their power to bring US all the truth and not just bring Roy and Mansi together.

Why does any twinflame couples togetherness matter to all of us? Why should it? What should it not? This bond is the antidote, the organic peaceful weapon in the battle against white supremacy, colonization, industrialization and the widespread degradation of our own health and that of the species. It must matter, if we matter to ourselves.

The outcome of this ordeal, is still being written…not by me, but by LIFE itself. And I toss between the harsh reality of a tragic end and a euphoric triumph of innocence and many other things. Without knowing the end, what I can say is this - the journey to handle/battle/deal with…or rather love on this ordeal is the greatest, most excruciating and exhilarating reality I have been given to live. The pain is as deep as the clarity of its purpose, the clarity of why me dancing for hours in front of the mirror as a young girl in my moms bedroom was preparation not childish wastefulness….why my instincts are worth the best insurance policy and not my ass, boobs, hair, face, etc. My instincts, Because our most basic instinct is LOVE and it is pleasurable, IT IS. It is designed to be. LOVE knows. It just knows. It does need the laundry list of reasons. That is FEAR. LOVE just knows and dares to be itself NO MATTER WHAT.

When we remember that the sapien instinct of desire is truly LOVE, we will embody a way of being that heals, frees, enlivens and most important of all - fulfills in a way even a 4 hour orgy will never.

When pens and paper are nearby and the only way to feel is….