Fantasy vs Desire, a true story
Boy meets goddess, but does not know she one. actually does not even know the category yet. Only knows Skanks and Queens. Yup, very player!
Anyhoo, Boy woes, dates, cooks, Goddess not be giving him any. Boy be wondering? “Damn she shy or something!” Goddess be knowing, “he playing somehow.” goddess’s bestie shows up in the scene. She be jealous of boy’s drive and desire for her. She starts her own game - SABOTAGE!! Yup, very skank!
Within weeks, Goddess be kicked to the curb by Boy and Skank be his queen on the side.
A few years later, Goddess be meeting boy again. “What you don to your hair” says everyone through her. Goddess be thinking, I still want him despite that hair and deception. Maybe I pay him for a few rounds to know what this about.
Boy quotes “$1000”
Goddess bursts our laughing and says, “That’s too high, I only got $298 for the first session. And I need to be able to explore blow jobs without condoms, can you offer that as your boundary with your first queen is only with condoms”
Boy reacts with hard turn on and anger “Its ALL on the table”
Goddess smiles (He be breaking her trust for this) and says, “Okay, let me know if my price point works and we can begin at my treehouse.”
Boy hangs up. Sits. Fidgets. A play be brewing in his mind immediately.
Keep Skank open, Get $1000 bucks from Queen. Hehehehe Revenge!
Goddess on next negotiation call. “I am a strong advocate for people of colour valuing themselves at a price that makes sense to them, and I honor that, and I can’t make that amount for this ask right now”
Boy reacts, then it's off.
Goddess says, too bad, cause I was dreaming up a few tantric sessions.
Boy reacts “This is bordering on harassment now”.
Goddess says “Then I am keeping all our conversations for the record as I quote you said “ITS ALL ON THE TABLE”
——end scene ——
True desire in boy: I want to fuck her, and will do it for free and kick skank to the curb, heck, I would kick first queen too, bro!
Fantasy: Keep Skank open, Get $1000 bucks from Queen. Hehehehe Revenge!
The fantasy is the energy of his unprocessed and unexpressed disappointment, coagulating in his being and spewing out as plays. His unprocessed pain made him lose the meeting of his true desire. Yup. Very player.