How are you feeling today?
The question most widely abused and severely needed in our world is ‘How are you feeling today?’
Its severe need is in the fact that it has the intention to hold space for our feelings. Those lofty things that can lift us to the sky or weigh us into darkness.
And someone asking this of me shows me their desire to know, their care, things I find truly precious.
But it is also abused because it is snuck into moments that do not have the spaciousness of time adequately for me to reply with rawness.
And so I have learned to shorthand what I am feeling into insufficient words like good. okay. great. I seldom say bad, even though I feel that the loudest, learning to lie through my teeth.
Because the truth is I am good, okay, great, and really bad all at once.
and the ‘How’ of what I am feeling is complexifying even as I ponder your pertinent question.
And I want to keep all of that alive. I want to renounce all shorthands and learned lies. Because naming myself as one is deceiving my struggles and wins in each moment.
And so when you ask me how am I feeling today, I will just say. I am feeling. I am alive.
I am sinking. I am soaring. I am steadying. All at once today.
